i will buy me a new life

gonna try and go back to school.
i need to be a success story. So here we go. I'm on my journey.
lol idk where to start or what I'll do. But this life is not for me. and something has to give.
I want so much more for myself. and my children.

early morning madness

my phone breaks, in my hand. it wont charge only stays alive on the charger and still cant be used. but alhamdulilah i am up in time to pray.
before salat i call the ebt card and find that there were no food stamps posted on my card. lol omg. ok... nothing i can do about that at six something in the morning. I try to put it to the back of my mind.
I make wudu and pray.
I decide to write, to blog. But I dont wish to complain as i sit here thinking that its way to early in the morning to have so much stuff going on.
I want to cry but to what use?

anyway phone call to be made today. I have an appointment sometime today. It's cold out. I have no coat. The 2 jackets have done fine so far. Its suppose to snow so maybe when it does I'll go to the college and shovel for 10 dollars and hour.
I'm o old for this kinda.
But in the end insha Allah all will be ok I hope. I have faith, i dont have to know the why of things although I wish I did. I just have to Not lose my way as I walk on this dark and lonely path.
i would like to write more but not now. when idk.
I have to believe things will get better.